Beyond Numbers: The Soul Behind the Screen

An open-hearted interview: from a house of wood and earth to the search for freedom.

We often see the impressive figures scrolling by: tens of thousands of followers, millions of views on Google Maps, and a constant presence in the digital and music world. But today, for the first time, we are not here to talk about metrics or algorithms. We are here to meet the person.

Q: Many people know you as a success story on social media. Who is really there, behind those screens?

A: There is a human being who feels pain, who feels exhaustion, and who, at times, cries. People often assume that those with large social media followings are just robots or digital assistants without emotions. I am the exact opposite. I am someone who has had to fight for every single breath of freedom. My story doesn’t begin with a smartphone in hand, but in a house made of wood and earth, where having bread was a luxury my biological family struggled to afford.

Q: You spoke about your origins and a traumatic separation. How much has that past shaped the person you are today?

A: It has left a deep mark. There were painful separations from my biological family, and my roots grew within institutions—what are called orphanages. They were supposed to be safe havens, but for me, they were places of horror. I experienced physical and psychological violence at an age when I should have only been playing. My childhood was denied. For years, I sought answers through psychological support, but the true healing only came when I realized I had to accept and like myself as I am, without the constant fear of being judged by others.

Q: And yet, from that paralyzing shyness you described, you found the strength to speak in front of hundreds of people. How did that change happen?

A: It was my comeback. For years, my goal was to be invisible; I felt shame for everything, even for my own thoughts. Then came tourist entertainment. It was a "slap" to the past. There, I learned to turn fear into opportunity. Speaking in public, being among people... it was a new life. I completed four seasons, fighting against the opinions of those who didn't want me to continue. But how can you stop doing what you feel is part of your very soul?

Q: Your story also reveals a great vulnerability regarding feelings. You spoke about unrequited love and loneliness.

A: Yes, the heart aches, sometimes unbearably. I have loved madly, doing the impossible for someone, only to find myself facing a wall of silence. People who disappear for years, then return just to watch your social media stories but never respond. I often ask myself: "What did I do wrong?". Perhaps my fault is being too kind, too honest. I don’t know how to lie, I have no secrets—I am a real person. And in a world that often prefers masks, sincerity almost seems like a flaw.

Q: You have lived through moments of extreme financial hardship and solitude. What would you say to those who feel the same way today?

A: I would tell them never to change to please others, but only to improve themselves. Followers and popularity can vanish in an instant, but what remains is you. I have known true poverty and the weight of not being in family harmony. But I have learned that fighting for what we love is the only thing that keeps us alive. The first love is never forgotten because it is a unique emotion, but the greatest love must be for your own truth.

Q: One last question: if you had to define yourself with just one word today, which would you choose?

A: "In transit" (or Searching). Despite the scars, the disappointments, and the economic struggles, today I choose to no longer hide. It is not the numbers that define me, but the ability to remain a human being in a digital world.